To become something better.
Saturday, December 31, 2016
Friday, December 30, 2016
Towels should always be warm
1; I like him.
2; he's mostly easy.
3; there might be something wrong with me.
Wednesday, December 21, 2016
Monday, December 19, 2016
I want you
To want me the way
My stomach drops in
Inches fluttering,
Recalling your quasi-affectionate
Hand absent from my knee,
Or the salt bitter scent of
Your cum on my cheek;
With the familiar burn of foolish tears
Of self-loathing, blinked back
Into the streetlights home;
Craving your disaffected touch,
The distance tangible, and the way I
Imagine a professional stranger carries out his craft, a job well done;
Always regretting the solitary goodbye at your door, you lay contentedly warm as I let myself out.
I want you to want me.
Friday, July 1, 2016
In a bath with the window open
I wasn't going to
keep your texts,
but I did.
Who needed that
record of evidence,
I thought.
But I did.
I wasn't going to
get attached to those
words,
But I did.
I wasn't going to
like you,
but, anyway, I did.
Nor was I going to
think of you often,
too often,
recounting, and recalling,
recounting, and recalling,
and I wasn't going to
sometimes
gasp aloud
upon that recollection,
but I did.
I most certainly did.
I self-promised I would
not miss you,
but I did.
I tried not to
like you, too much,
but I did.
And I really wasn't
going to,
but I have.
Thursday, June 30, 2016
Sheath
Comparing the size
of our hands,
fingers and fronts aligned,
printed and palmed,
nervous and calmed,
convexes filling hollows,
concaves where fallow;
my chilly tips
pressed 'gainst your
warm mitts,
the roughened edges
only just familiar.
Where the
Ends extend,
bend;
mismatched pairs
wrap and fold,
Properly.
Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday.
Carlos,
who once gave me his
number, scrawled nervously
on a yellow sticky note,
brown and blushing
beside his large white coach,
places his hand over his white
uniformed breast pocket,
and tells me I get
prettier and prettier,
and prettier and prettier,
and prettier and prettier,
everyday,
and his heart cannot bear it.
He emplores
me to call him
mi amor,
our passing daily Spanish lesson,
and uninvitedly caresses my finger tips,
during this brief morning boarding
he praises my
shedded winter wardrobe,
and calls me a fabulous
young multi-lingual lady,
just the kind he needs.
Oh, Carlos,
rotund and moderately melanin-packed,
I do hope
you will find someone
who will call you
amor.
Thursday, June 2, 2016
At the very end, I'd do it all again
Tonight
out walking
the too-early summer
pressing on my cheeks,
he walks by,
wrapped bundle hoisted
in bared arms;
the assumed
shh-shh-shh
bounce-bounce-bounce
whispered in time to
my heart's reply:
I remember this.
Tuesday, May 31, 2016
S.E.
He sat across
the high table,
and callously
told me of
her abortions,
and her rapes.
How can you
trust a man
who has so
little regard
for the tragedy
of women.
Monday, May 23, 2016
You would have brought me dandelions
A long time ago,
when things were fresher
and brighter,
you would have brought me
dandelion greens,
hacked from our yard
as you toiled too dirty and
unkempt, for the work
showed,
and they would have been
bitter and gritty
with the impending loss.
Thursday, May 19, 2016
Automatic
I texted you,
and even though you
replied in quick succession,
and told me you
loved me,
I cried,
because it was not
what I wanted to hear.
1.
No reminders left upon my body,
No remnants of your hardness striking mine;
There is no black and blue, but I carry
Clarity of memory till next time.
Your manly mitts did tenderize the pale
Of my wincing breast with no tell-tale trace;
And gone is the remainder of your force
That slapped insolent laughter from my face.
Unmarked, unseen, like a slate wiped clean,
Relightened, no evidence of your brand:
No pleasure derived from the fleeting sign
Of warm bum by unlasting redd'ning-hand.
When we are once again so in bed fresh,
I will welcome your mark upon my flesh.
2.
Never again will I utter the word
Nice, while enprisioned in your manly bed;
I will not praise your kindness so absurb
While you generously pin down my head.
I will not sing pleasantries of pure joy
Listing your commendable qualities
As you courteously make me your toy,
To abuse masterfully as you please.
Benevolent ruler, my thoughts be stark:
Gentle domination to go unraved,
Reassuring restraint without remark,
Piercing sodomy free of accolade.
Know this now, accept it free, take my heed:
Cruelty would be withholding what we need.
le dormir juste
I would like to
live in your inches
from the ankles up,
tracing small circles
along the flesh of your
hard work,
delving into my
thesaurus of touch,
editing your skin
with my fingertips,
inscribing
a novella on the
heartland of your back,
composing an honest
lullaby of affection,
rewriting the
knots of your day,
into the prone prose
of dayslumber.
Lowell maples
Tonight
on the way home,
the browned amber
streetlights
traced the shape of summer
on the sidewalk.
I was surprised
we'd come this far.
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